I have got a Maths quiz later and I am far from finishing my revision. But I really need to take a break from all those Xs and Ys now. Studying Maths always makes me feel like I am suffering. Yes, SUFFERING!! As in, "stab a knife through my heart and crush my skull with a rock" that kind of SUFFERING.. I hate Maths. It drives me to a state of suicidal depression. I really hate hate hate Maths. I even considered hurting myself just to avoid the Maths quiz. Yes, I am stupid. I am beginning to wonder if Engineering is actually a revenge-tool carefully planned and exercised by the "Greats" to torture the generations thereafter? I hate Newton and all his evil evil associates. Argh!! I am talking out of point here. But please bear with me, cos I am "SUFFERING" here.
Never in my life had I longed so much to just be another bimbo. That is obviously far better than to exists as someone with intelligence and appearance which are neither here nor there.
Spent the whole night wondering why am I not good at anything at all?
And why am I not crying yet? Why cant I cry over this??
Great. The most unnatural of unnaturals have happened... Even my tears have abandon me.
