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Sunday, October 29, 2006

Test Post

I can't post.

If u can read this, it means I cant post anything else except for this.

What's wrong???

8:23 AM
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Saturday, October 28, 2006

TiNg's B'DaY

Yesterday was Ting's Birthday!!!! I shall not disclose her age, but yah, she's younger than me lah.

HaPpY BiRtHdAy, GiRL!!!!

So we and our "knights" went for a KTV session after our lecture, for a night of crazy "window-breaking" fun! No, we didn't go to K-Box. Haha.

Mischevious Eloys wanted to give the outing a miss initially. But she turned up surprising Ting with a small bouquet of roses, how sweet! Its really great that she turned up.

Ting's Birthday Cake

Ting and her Knight

"I shall huff and puff and blow the candles out!!!"

Ms Koala looks like she's posing for some Jeans and Sweater advertisment. Haha!

A small card I made for Ting.

I think I'm getting old & senile, I've really lost the touch in cards-designing and making.

So this looks really plain and weird...

The bear is supposed to be sitting, NOT hanging in mid air. And the weirdness of the design... Gosh! Baby and I agree that it looks like I've locked the sunny sky INDOORS.

*Slap my forehead*

I really had a great time @ KTV!! Lina's voice is really on the high-key range, and she can go on and on when I'm already starting to turn purple in attempt to burst my lungs. I like singing with her, she can help me cover up for my breathelessness!! Hehe. A pity Xinyi doesn't sing at all. But its really nice of her to join us despite that. We always know that Eloys has difficults reading chinese, but yesterday was an eye-opener. I don't think there was like one song that she didn't stop in mid track with a puzzle look. Haha.

And Silly Baby nearly made me laugh my head off. Despite quite a few reminders, he got confused with the identity of the Birthday Girl. So when the other 2 girls went away for a short while, my stupid guy said ALOUD, right in front of Ting, that I can make some adjustment I needed to the card then and there!!!! *Faints* Trust my baby to do something blur like that. Luckily the girl was too engrossed talking to her knight to hear what he said. Haha.

Oh, by the way, this was taken on our 3rd-Anniversary.

Because of his idiotic colleague (read previous post), we only got to spent minimal time together. And look how tired he is. Poor Baby. But we made it up the next day with a nice sushi buffet!!! Eh... Or rather Amaebi-Sashimi Buffet. Because all I remember eating was Amaebi Sashimi, and I had 12 plates of that, among other stuff which *ahem*... includes Amaebi Tempura too. So by the end of the buffet, I must have had approx. 120 little prawns swimming in my tummy.... I am like a sinner. Sob.

The interesting part came when we were leaving the restaurant, the usually shy waiter gave me a really, really cheeky smile. Opps. He knows.... I'm a ruthless Prawn-nivore. Amaebi, RUN for your lives!!!! Opps, too late...! The Prawn-nivore will send u to Western-Paradise in moi stomach!! Hahahaha!!!!

Craving for a next visit to my cute little Amaebi-s.... They miss me... alot. Soon soon ok, Baby?? Hehe.

11:04 PM
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Thursday, October 26, 2006

i mUst bE....

I learnt a lesson today.

A short while ago, I was slightly displeased with the way a friend handled a situation. While there wasn't any conflicts of interests between us at all, this annoyance simply aggravated enough to blemish the way I see her and eventually the way I reacted towards her.

I started being real impatient around her. I literally had to hold my tongue to prevent slashing argumentative remarks whenever she speaks. While I can get quite blunt at times, hurt a few with my words when I was younger, and have absolutely no qualms about telling off a stranger who pisses me. Frankly, at this age, I'd rarely go out of my way to upset a friend, unless he/she totally cheeses me off. Even when dealing with hopelessly annoying friends, I'd rather choose to distance myself away, then to kick off a confrontation.

I was completely surprised at myself for acting this way. I guess I still lack maturity in handling people behaviour. I really should have tried to put myself in her shoes and try to understand why she did things the way she did. But in my haste to judge her actions, I've actually overlooked the kind of character she has to begin with. She may be headstrong, blunt and somewhat tactless, but at least she has got an honest nature. Yet, I thoughtlessly allowed myself to overlooked her age and hence her perceptions.

While I often remind myself that maturity is a function of age and experiences, and that we behave the way we do simply because we are at the age, I remained hopelessly blinded here. As someone older, I should have tried to patiently counselled her thinkings, instead of allowing my own judgmental opinions get better of me. I should not have expected her to handle things with an approach neither of her age nor nature. Yes, I am disappointed in myself.

Nevertheless, this is an important lesson well-learnt. I will become more considerate. I will learn to be more diplomatic. I will learn not to let my personal opinions manipulate my mind. I must become a wiser person. While I also need time to cultivate my own maturity, I must allow my friends time to nurture theirs too.

I will be a more patient friend. Hopefully.

3:39 AM
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006

ASSHOLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm FISHING ANGRY now!!!!!!!

Tommorow is our Anniversary but now all plans are cancelled!!!

Why??? Because of a damn irresponsible colleague that my Baby has!! Fuck that Asshole!!!

This idiot conned Baby into swapping shifts with him last week: Made Baby work his last Thursday Shift and claimed he'll repay the favor tomorrow, so Baby doesn't need to apply for leave to celebrate our Anniversary.

Then this Fucker messaged Baby late just now and claimed he can't make it back from Malaysia in time tomorrow to do Baby's 9pm shift! Which means Baby's got to work and all our plans goes down the drain!!! WTF!!! I'm very certain that his offer of swapping shifts was just a plot to make Baby cover his shift in the very first place!! He had no intentions of fulfilling his part!

Bastard!! What do you mean u can't make it back into SIN in time?! The shift is another 20 hours away, u mean you can't roll ur fat ass from KUL to SIN in 20 hours??!!! What is so goddamn important that u wouldn't crawl back to SIN as u promised?! Did ur father died in Malaysia? Was ur sister kidnapped?? Did ur mother choked on her facial cucumbers?? Or did someone raped ur dog?? NO!!! You just want to enjoy life while my poor Baby is forced to slog hours away on the day of our Anniversary!

And this is not the first time this Lazy Fucker played his filthy games!! Despicable Creep!! It really upsets me how Baby has been working 7 days non-stop!! But Lazy Parasites like him wouldn't know how tiring that is, because all he does is Laze, Laze and Laze, and look for more chances to Laze!! Baby doesn't mind sleeping less to meet me tomorrow but I really hate to have him sacrifice his already pathetic sleeping hours! Heartache, u know?

Baby tried emphasizing the importance of having the day off tomorrow by reminding him that its our Anniversary. And that Worthless-Piece-of-SHIT just replied "Sorry" and case closed... Damn, u have the cheek to say sorry!!! What use is ur sorry??? I can kick u in the groin and say sorry too!! U better pray hard I'd never see u in person! Or I will make u a eunuch with a swift display of my knifng skills, then make sure u crumble to tears with a nice hot bowl of mutton stew with ur neatly-diced little buddy in it!!!

Yes, I'm fierce, but Ahhhhhhh....!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am BOILING with ANGER!!!!

Everyone listen, that Bastard is called SURESH. Make sure you don't trust any gas technician by the name of SURESH! He's a goddamn CONMAN!!! Yes Asshole, ur GOD will DAMN LAZY CHEATS like u!!!

DISGUSTING SURESH!!! Why don't u go Fuck a goldfish now and DIE!!! N.B.

12:01 AM
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006

TrOubLesOmE FeMaLe!!!

Our 3rd year anniversary is just tomorrow. Well, not exactly 3rd year if u count the period we were separated, and amount of time I was away for the past 1.5years. Nevertheless, its still an occasion to remember.

U know how when memorable dates arrive, one tends to revive the locked memories of the related past? I asked him a pretty stupid question a couple of days ago, the kind you wouldn't expect a less than "perfect" answer for. In other words, a *TRAP* question. By the way, tramatizing victims with *Trap* questions is my other speciality besides whining. HAHA. Cruel, ya?

I asked him if given a chance to re-live the moment 3 years ago, would he still say what he said? Ok, I know this is getting extremely MUSHY and sounds FisHing STUPID to read it out of the blog of someone my age... (Now maybe i should add words like *BLUSHES* to make myself look even more idiotic.). Yes, laugh ur ass off at me. But hey, any girl hopelessly drowned in love has got a few stupid questions to ask, right? I'm like partially drowned, so I'm entitled to at least 1 question, ok. HEHE.

Actually, I was kind of innocently expecting a frank "NO."... As much as u may vigorously shake and eventually dislocate ur head in utter disbelief, I do conduct self-reflections hor. Really!! And I do them frequent enough to know what a terrible girlfriend I make. Hypothetically, I should be extremely pleased with a "YES", but as soon as he made his "perfect" reply, it abruptly struck me what a crafty question that was to begin with. Suddenly felt quite disappointed. Sigh.

I couldn't decide was I more disppointed at my idiotic question or in Baby's reply. Nothing's wrong with his reply, really... But the fact lies that I did asked a trap question, which means he could only have 1 answer. What a miserable 'insight'... Girls... Can u believe them?? When they achieve their desires, they are not happy. When they can't get what they wanted, they are not happy either. What do they want??? So troublesome!

But how can he answer YES? I am such a spoilt and horrible girlfriend! After 3 years, I don't even know that he hates to eat mee-fen. I don't know what he likes either. He's obliged to send me to and fro wherever I go. I help myself to his spending power at free will, no questions asked. I don't cook for him. He carrys my bags. He makes fried rice for me. He pays for my food and my bills. I love to see him yelp in pain while i close my clamps on the pathetic numbers of pits on his face. I can whine like nobody's business and always get my way eventually. I rarely bothers about what pisses him off as long as I fulfill my own interests. I'm never punctual on our dates, and I'm hardly sorry for it. I have strong opinions about his so-called friends. I also love to torture him into shopping with me. And I wouldn't hesitant to bite and chew on his sanity when I'm not happy. I'm troublesome!! And I'm extremely unreasonable!!!!!!

See, there's no reason why Baby can justify a YES! Baby, u should just dump me... Sniff... I'm so UPSET... Now let me go and smash my pea-sized brain at the wall. AHHHhhhhhhhh......!!!!!!!

7:42 AM
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Monday, October 23, 2006

a DaY wiTh tHe GiRLs!

Was in school with my uni buddies yesterday to do our reports. Haha, it seems more like a girls day out!

It seems like these usually-camera-shy girls like taking photos too!

Girls, ur pics have been uploaded to here for ur download!

8:57 PM
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Sunday, October 22, 2006

BoRinG DaY...

Spend the whole day at home doing nothing... I'm not exactly bored, u know I love doing nothing. Haha. Baby's been very busy this week, many overtime hours to clock. And I was very busy during the two previous weeks, so we haven't been dating. Sigh...

He has just finished his shift, so now he's going over to the B-group's for mahjong session till morning. Ok, he deserve a good break from a busy week, so I shan't complain. At least he managed to accompany me to school once and send me back home from school once this week. Kind of wish we have more time for each other, but hey, having my own time is like important too... So... Hehe.

Exams are nearing, I promised myself to start preparation today. But as usual, I was daydreaming majority of the time. Thats just so me. I'm taking like 1-2hours just to finish reading one single paragraph. Have been at this dipole passage for a long long time, reading countless "Dipole...", "Dipole...", "Dipole. Dipole. Dipole..." for the past 2 hours. But all that goes into my mind is "Tadpole...", "Tadpole...", "Tadpole. Tadpole. Tadpole...". Argh! Stop tadpole-ing can?!!

Recently everyone's been talking about marriage. Ok, I know I've just blog about this not too long ago. Pardon me, but its getting to the extent of frightening! Was out with Empress Law yesterday, and she suddenly asked me "So how, has he proposed?". My mind just went: What the FISH??... "Proposed?? No way!"

And just today, my 7th uncle came over and he started going on about how I would be 27 by the time I finish this course (Grrr... Dear Uncle, age is very very sensitive ok?). I complemented the awkwardness by stuffing my face with more yoghurt and started choking on it. How stupid. Then he went on about how I'm already of age, and how I might even be married before I finish the course. *Gasp* I almost fell off my chair!!!!

This is getting way out of hand... I'm not getting married, People!!

NO proposal!!
NO intentions to propose!!
NO ROM!!
NO marriage!!
NO wedding!!
NO plans!!
NO intentions to sell myself away!!

NOOOOOOoooooooooo!!!!!!!!!!!!!! No more questions, no more hypothesis, no more assumptions, OK!!

12:27 AM
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Saturday, October 21, 2006

bReaKiNg Up...

Guy and Girl dates
Guy loses feelings for Girl
Guy breaks up with Girl
Guy dates New Girl soon after
Girl is devastated

How many times have you heard a story like this? I really wonder how many people actually uses depleted feelings out of the blue as a reason to shake off the other half. Of all the reasons there are to break up, I guess the one that I can never come in terms with is "I'm sorry, I have no more feelings for u"....

Him: I'm sorry I have fallen for someone new. Lets break up.
Me: U unfaithful jerk! I hope u get dumped by her! *Slaps* No, I'm dumping u!

Him: Let break up, I need to focus on my studies/career/whatever...
Me: Didn't u say I was ur world?? *Slaps Slaps Slaps* Heartless Jerk!

Him: I'm sorry, My mother doesn't like you!
Me: I don't like your shit-faced mother either! Worthless Jerk! *Slaps*

Him: I'm sorry, but u are just not good enough for me...
Me: What?? Like I'm supposed to feel inferior to u?? U filthy ugly toad! *Slaps*

Him: I'm sorry, I have no more feelings for you... Lets break up...
Me: ....................................*Slaps*.................*Slaps*...............*Slaps*

I can understand breaking up due to clashes in characters. But having no more feelings for another person seemed like such an insincere reason for breaking up... Its so sudden and unbelievable. Irregardless who made the first move in the relationship, eventually both were responsible for leading each other on to believe that there is a future.

Do u believe in losing love for someone overnight? How can it happen? Well, unless he got knocked down by a truck and suffers severe amnesia. If feelings were that easily lost, why start an relationship in the first place? The time wasted and the emotions invested by the other party, while u decide on how ur feelings work, isn't something u can compensate with apologies.

Since he appeared so indecisive in his feelings, maybe tomorrow he might change his mind? But what if he doesn't? So now what? Is she supposed to wait, or go on with life and stop believing in the past? Everything seems so ambiguous, right? I guess a person like this isn't worth being so upset over. A person that cant even be open and truthful about his/her feelings, isn't worth loving anyway.

Baby says I seems to have the character of a male at times. Strong and stubborn. Or perhaps I've grown alot emotionally, I never believed anyone cant survive without the other. I was born without him, so surely I can live without him. If I'm ever faced with such an situation, I would just forget the asshole and live better. Like the one who never fails to voiced out that I wasn't good enough for him back then. He's just not good enough for me now.

6:50 AM
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Friday, October 20, 2006

LiFe nOw...

Heard something today that made mi think of my flying days and why I quit. Life is pretty simple now... I really do enjoy my simple life. Well... Though not exactly true when I have quizzes or exams... Haha.

When I was still flying, I didn't feel like I was living a life... Being far away from home two-thirds of a year, each alternate day was like an check-in, check-out affair. Although I had alot more time and space to myself, and frankly, I greatly enjoyed that too. Nevertheless, it saddens me that:

I had the time, but not the energy to take a simple stroll in the garden.

I had the money to indulge in finer stuff, but that didn't make me a happier person.

I had the privilege of knowing the world, but I didn't what was happening in my home grounds.

I could visit the huge safari in Africa, but didn't know what we have in the local zoo.

I may have had the means of getting the most expensive concealer available, but that wouldn't cover up my increasingly terrifying dark eye rings.

I could afford one box of slimming pills after another, but I didn't have the time to eat healthier.

I may have enjoyed the softest bed in 5-stars hotel, but I couldn't get used to my own bed at home.

I could have waffles from New York and sashimi from Tokyo, but I couldn't remember when was the last time I had a nice plate of Fried Kway Teow.

Yes, I may have terrible quizzes and exam blues now, but that really can't compare to the "Control-Centre" blues I had before each flight --- the scary thoughts of praying that the cab may crash before I reach the Changi Airport, so that I did not have to report for flights.

But still, I did enjoy the freedom... While squeezing in with the rest of the working society on the MRT the other morning, I can understand why it is so many girl's dream to become a stewardess. Looking at the expressionless zombies rushing for work on the train makes me want to get away too! I can't imagine being a part of these zombies four years later. Yet how much are we willing to sacrifice for a dream to be away?

Baby says after I graduate, if I want we can apply for flight attendant jobs together. Haha, I will think about it again. Hehe. If Baby is flying with me, I'm sure things would be very different!! At least with him around, 80% of my little universe is with me when I'm away from 20% of it...

3:43 AM
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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

StUpiD bRaiN pLoTs tO OveRwOrK mE!!!

Why am I awake at 4am???!!

I cant sleep... There's an ongoing battle up there in my brain...

Half of it thinks I should be burying myself in books like I have been obediently doing at these hours everyday, for the past two weeks. The other half reckons I really need a good rest. I personally agree with the latter... My dark eye bags agree too. No??? Why not?!

Shut up, Brain!! Let me sleep!!!! Nooooo.... I will not study tonight!!! I said NO... NO NO NO! I don't want to. I would not, would NOT!!! Now stop bugging me! Shoo! Go away!!!

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My GoD, I am so RESTLESS!!!!!!!!

Ok, fine!! You WIN... I WILL study.

I hate my brain... Stupid Brain... Stupid StupiD STUPID Brain... I want to cry. Argh.

4:07 AM
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aBoUt QuiZzeS aGaiN...

My last blog was like four days ago... U can see how "overwhelmed" I am by the quizzes... My sleeping hours suffered, my waistline suffered from all the snacking impulses, my eyebags suffered, and even my butt hurts from sitting too much at my study. I also neglected spending time with Baby. But all these would not improve my grades. Sigh.

I still cant perform during quizzes. On every quiz I would just stare at the paper and my brain switches to HIBERNATE mode. All the letters turns into little black ants that march my desk. My only consolation is, at least by now, on the fifth quiz, I can finally defy enough stress to understand what the questions are asking. But answering them seems to take knowledge out of my universe... Yet strangely, at the split second that the lecturer takes over the paper, all the answers would come to my mind.

I think I am somewhat retarded. Haha, my uni buddies sometimes teases me about my slow responses and how whenever I am concentrating on something, nothing else will trigger my attention. I think its kind of funny too, looking at their exasperated faces. But I certainly don't appreciate "retardedness" happening during quizzes! Sis calls that my lack-of-sleep-and-over-stressed-Mental-Block.

Went to pick up the bottles of yoghurt n chocolate from my teamie after my quiz. Thanks Kelly!!!! So nice of her to get me my favourites from Frankfurt!! Yoghurt in glass bottles are very heavy, u know. Like a KG each. And she got me 2 bottles plus other stuff! Imagine the weight added to her luggage! And this is not the first time she got them for me. Sob... I'm touched!

Anyway, I was telling her if I fail this course, I will go back flying. Ok, mayb not a firm WILL... but MAY consider... Afterall it offers higher paycheck, and if mental health can be sacrificed, then money is by no doubt important. Haha..

My point is I guess there is really a high chance that I may fail the course. Well... Unless if the rest of the uni mates are idiots like me, who will all eventually get a big fat ZERO for our exams... Now that is rather unlikely.

Ok, I know I have been grumbling alot... But just let me be... I like to GRUMBLE. Maybe I can de-stress just by grumbling?? This is my time capsule, my memory lane... Four years later, if I do get a chance to wear that "limited-edition-hat" to my graduation ceremony, please remind me to come back and take a look at the embarrassment I am now ok?

On a HAPPIER thought, at least TECHNICALLY speaking, I am still living my dream. Right?

12:09 AM
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Thursday, October 12, 2006

GrUmbLiNg...

If you have had enough of my endless chanting, please do NOT read this... This is yet another of my ruthless attempt to poison your sight with my pessimism. Trust me, I sometimes do wonder why am I such a grumbler too... Haha. Cant be helped.

I have another quiz tomorrow and one more on next Monday. I am so not prepared!! I guess I am not the only person stressed up. I almost burst out laughing when I read my clasmates' MSN nicks... They read: Toopid Me, Why am I so stupid, etc... Mine says I am Killed by Maths. Not an uncommon sight.

Someone said that preparing for a quiz here is equivalent to preparing for an exam back it in poly days. I have to agree. Back in poly days I only need 3-4 hours to be adequately loaded for quizzes, but now a week of preparation still leaves me in struggles.

People reckon that since I am not working, I must have plenty of time to spend on reading. So why am I still so unprepared and stressed up?

You see... My time is always "well-utilized" by my bizarre sleeping patterns. I swear I have already cut down on addictive net-surfing and shopping. But that doesn't give me much extra time too, because sleeping is my ulitmate rival. I need like at least 12-15hours of sleep daily, anything shorter than that leaves me extremely lethagic! It is no unusual feat for me to clock a 20-hour sleep too. And it happens very often. Totally uncontrollable.

The second thing is my malfunctioned brain. I learnt from Day 1 of this course that I do not even have the foundation knowledge required to guide me through the next 4 years of studies. While others may need 15mins to attempt solving a question, I can take as long as 2hours for each question. I can offer an obvious explanation for this too... It is because I have a pea-sized brain and I am stupid, definitely.

At times I really wonder why did I put myself in such a entangled mess? Does this field of studies suit me? Even Baby commented that I should have taken up an Arts or Design course! I have absolutely no interest in becoming an engineer and I really cant think of anything I would like to do if I can complete this course. But then again, I was the one who put myself into this mess, so I have to go on with it regardless whatever.

Please remind me that its more fortunate being a student that a corporate zombie! I don't care if I may get expelled for failing modules eventually. But I will not tolerate regrets. Smoke my way through if I must, I will not withdraw from the course!

GO GO JIA YOU!!!

1:37 AM
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Monday, October 09, 2006

ShuQin's WeDDinG DinNeR!!!

I am finally blogging on ShuQin's Wedding Dinner! Ok, I know I am 2 days late... Haha! Well, I have got to admit the delay's is my fault lah... Greedy me have too many pictures to post up here, been scratching my head thinking of how to post them without overloading the blog!!

Smart Baby just reminded me I can post the pictures as a slide show, so here they are:

Everyone looks happy!!!! People say girls are the prettiest on their wedding day. I really agree with that! But I only have one picture of the bride and her groom now, will upload more when I get the pics! Our dear pretty JingPing is looking more and more like an actress, don't you think so? And I love the way SiongChew smiles! He's got one of the most sincere smile I've ever seen!

Oh by the way, dearies, the pictures have been uploaded to here.

It really had been fun meeting up the gang!!! I guess at this busy age, wedding dinners are perhaps the only way the majority of us will come together! I remember that the last time I saw so much of my polymates was at Shuqin's House Warming party... And that was 2 years ago! We must really thank that girl for giving us chances to meet up! Haha!

I truly admire ShuQin's courage, especially as someone our age, for taking this step. I'm really happy for her, for finding someone she can spend the rest of her life with. May you have a BLISSFUL MARRIAGE, ShuQin!! When can we see little ShuQin, huh??? Hehe.

However, while I admire her enthusiasm for walking into her next phrase of life, I am also sadly reminded of my own cowardice. To me, marriage is really too huge a step to make! Just thinking of the hassles and the preparations to fuse two separate lives together sounds quite stressful already.

Today, Baby asked me when do I feel is an ideal age for marriage, I replied that 30 would be a good age. But frankly, deep down, I don't think I will even be ready for marriage at 30. Ok, this is talking abit too out of point, but if I ever become a runaway bride, which is highly possible, I really hope my partner will forgive me.

Just 2 days ago, I was telling ZhiJian, I would rather cohabit with someone than to get married. He was pretty shocked. A simple "I DO" means more than an pledge of lifetime commitment to someone. It is that serious, like an invisible weight that can crush me. No, I am not open-minded at all, those who know me would know that I am pretty traditional. But such an vow of commitment is something that I simply can't shoulder up.

Furthermore, even though I can be quite clingy, I also deeply treasure having alot of my own space too. Living together 24/7 will smother me. You might as well put a collar to my neck and strap me to a tree! Or better still, force a pillow over my face and watch me turn blue. Just a simple thought of marriage is more than enough to make me quiver... How scary is that!! I guess I still lack the maturity to handle all these... I don't think I will ever be ready for it!

Baby, please please please do NOT propose. I am not saying don't ever propose, but at least NOT in the next 4-5 or maybe even 6 years. Or how about when I'm ready I will propose to you instead? Hahahaha! Very funny huh... But seriously, don't propose anytime in a lengthy while. You know how much I love you... But don't propose ok?

Eh... Am I too paranoid liao?

11:52 PM
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Sunday, October 08, 2006

bLuRrEd...

I just came back from my polymate's wedding! Had a wonderful time with the gang. Missed them terribly!!!

Wish I can blog about it right now, but I am having another of my twice-weekly headaches...

I am squinting my eyes just to read my typing now, I really can't tell which of my eyes is actually the seeing one and which is duplicating the sight. I can see 2 teddy bears, 2 fans, 2 DKNY bags, two Gucci wallets, the scariest part is I see 4 legs attached to my body. Am I that drunk??!! I only had 4 glasses of red wine... Not alot leh. Baby says I should flip open my wallet now and look if all the cash I have has doubled... Splendid idea!

I certainly aren't thinking clear enough to do a justifiable blog about the wedding. So sorry dearies, I shall just post one of my drafts today. Apologies for the poor English in this disorganized post. My blurred vision forbids me to do any editing, so my draft remains as polished as a draft would be, hee.

2:29 AM
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a diFFeReNt viEw...

At twenties, what I want in a guy is somewhat different.

For a start, I no longer want flowers, gifts or expensive dinners, which I think are totally impractical.

In my opinon, FoodCourt is perfect for a date, and Valentine's Day isn't any special day. All those V-day hassles are just gimmicks created by cunning businessmen to cheat our hard-earned money. I spent my 2005 V-Day dinner in a FoodCourt, in the luxury of air-conditioned space, with a table filled to brim with yummy food, that didn't cost him a cent more than $30. I was happy all the same! We did not have to squeeze for breathing spaces with hundred other couples for the so-called romantic feel, which frankly, wouldn't be romantic at all!

All expensive bouquet-ed flowers wither, and do note that it will NeveR fail Not to. Boo-hoo.. Wouldn't you cry now if you see your 50-dollar note wither?!! And what gifts? I don't remember buying any gift on any so-call special days for Baby and usually vice-versa. We lived happily all the same. In my twenties, I learnt that materialistic satisfaction isn't all that makes a couple happy, and it should not.

Now, I no longer dream to be kissed by a Prince Charming, because I now know that how deceiving looks and riches can be. They may be part of the package that actually hides a demon beneath. Looks will wither with age, and riches *that may or may not even exist in the first place* don't grow by themselves if your Prince Charming is a big-talk-dream-alot-life-waster. A debt-free-down-to-earth guy, who has a purpose and control in life, and whom also brings home a stable income regardless more or less, fits my bill better now.

I no longer yearn to be made a tai-tai. If I am ever dying to be one, I shall make myself one, with my own means. Money really isn't everything, you may earn a lot, but it really doesn't mean anything. I am saying this from my limited experience. Even as someone relatively fresh from school, watching my bank account grow by 4-6K monthly isn't as exciting as the $2.80 Meiji Macadamia Chocolate Baby gets for me once a month.

And did I ever mention I have a great dislike for Not-so-rich-but-act-rich-Richies, Born-with-silver-spoon-Richies and worse still if he's also a Depend-on-daddy-Richie or a Show-off-bad-attitude-spoilt-Richie? What a turn-off! I'm sorry, mom... but save your dreams, I'll never be sold off to a Rich Ass. Next lifetime, perhaps? And don't forget, mom... Rich Asses have their eyes implanted at levels your daughter's height can never reach. Yucks. Save me...

I guess Fairytales now belong to the shelf at that corner of my study room, dusty and dogearred.

Maybe I would have another set of guidelines in my thirties... But now at twenties, I seek only stability in my life.

2:11 AM
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Wednesday, October 04, 2006

PuNisHeD...

I am sick again... Fever and headache...

It must be that 200grams of every flavour ham...

It must be mom's cooking...

It must have been me having too much good food at one go...

I was too greedy...

Eating too much is sinful, so now my body is punishing me for it... Sigh.

我知错了啦...

11:46 PM
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Sunday, October 01, 2006

a DaY wiTh tHe GiRLs!!

To all my *Young-at-Heart* friends, Happy Children's Day!!!! Now, where's my children's day present, Baby??

Spent a nice afternoon with my long-time pals yesterday. Had a great lunch with Tian, followed by dinner together with Val who joined us later. Being with them makes me feels like I've had alot of hot chocolate... warm and cozy. Although certain things had changed through the years, it is always the nice memories that comes back.

Guess who I met at Cityhall? Claire!!!!! That girl, its been ages since I've last seen her. Everyone had been busy. But I guess for friends who had left more than a footprint in our lives, no matter how much time has pass, it warms us up just to see them again. Take Care, Girl!