My last blog was like four days ago... U can see how "overwhelmed" I am by the quizzes... My sleeping hours suffered, my waistline suffered from all the snacking impulses, my eyebags suffered, and even my butt hurts from sitting too much at my study. I also neglected spending time with Baby. But all these would not improve my grades. Sigh.
I still cant perform during quizzes. On every quiz I would just stare at the paper and my brain switches to HIBERNATE mode. All the letters turns into little black ants that march my desk. My only consolation is, at least by now, on the fifth quiz, I can finally defy enough stress to understand what the questions are asking. But answering them seems to take knowledge out of my universe... Yet strangely, at the split second that the lecturer takes over the paper, all the answers would come to my mind.
I think I am somewhat retarded. Haha, my uni buddies sometimes teases me about my slow responses and how whenever I am concentrating on something, nothing else will trigger my attention. I think its kind of funny too, looking at their exasperated faces. But I certainly don't appreciate "retardedness" happening during quizzes! Sis calls that my lack-of-sleep-and-over-stressed-Mental-Block.
Went to pick up the bottles of yoghurt n chocolate from my teamie after my quiz. Thanks Kelly!!!! So nice of her to get me my favourites from Frankfurt!! Yoghurt in glass bottles are very heavy, u know. Like a KG each. And she got me 2 bottles plus other stuff! Imagine the weight added to her luggage! And this is not the first time she got them for me. Sob... I'm touched!
Anyway, I was telling her if I fail this course, I will go back flying. Ok, mayb not a firm WILL... but MAY consider... Afterall it offers higher paycheck, and if mental health can be sacrificed, then money is by no doubt important. Haha..
My point is I guess there is really a high chance that I may fail the course. Well... Unless if the rest of the uni mates are idiots like me, who will all eventually get a big fat ZERO for our exams... Now that is rather unlikely.
Ok, I know I have been grumbling alot... But just let me be... I like to GRUMBLE. Maybe I can de-stress just by grumbling?? This is my time capsule, my memory lane... Four years later, if I do get a chance to wear that "limited-edition-hat" to my graduation ceremony, please remind me to come back and take a look at the embarrassment I am now ok?
On a HAPPIERthought, at least TECHNICALLY speaking, I am still living my dream. Right?
