If you have had enough of my endless chanting, please do NOT read this... This is yet another of my ruthless attempt to poison your sight with my pessimism. Trust me, I sometimes do wonder why am I such a grumbler too... Haha. Cant be helped.
I have another quiz tomorrow and one more on next Monday. I am so not prepared!! I guess I am not the only person stressed up. I almost burst out laughing when I read my clasmates' MSN nicks... They read: Toopid Me, Why am I so stupid, etc... Mine says I am Killed by Maths. Not an uncommon sight.
Someone said that preparing for a quiz here is equivalent to preparing for an exam back it in poly days. I have to agree. Back in poly days I only need 3-4 hours to be adequately loaded for quizzes, but now a week of preparation still leaves me in struggles.
People reckon that since I am not working, I must have plenty of time to spend on reading. So why am I still so unprepared and stressed up?
You see... My time is always "well-utilized" by my bizarre sleeping patterns. I swear I have already cut down on addictive net-surfing and shopping. But that doesn't give me much extra time too, because sleeping is my ulitmate rival. I need like at least 12-15hours of sleep daily, anything shorter than that leaves me extremely lethagic! It is no unusual feat for me to clock a 20-hour sleep too. And it happens very often. Totally uncontrollable.
The second thing is my malfunctioned brain. I learnt from Day 1 of this course that I do not even have the foundation knowledge required to guide me through the next 4 years of studies. While others may need 15mins to attempt solving a question, I can take as long as 2hours for each question. I can offer an obvious explanation for this too... It is because I have a pea-sized brain and I am stupid, definitely.
At times I really wonder why did I put myself in such a entangled mess? Does this field of studies suit me? Even Baby commented that I should have taken up an Arts or Design course! I have absolutely no interest in becoming an engineer and I really cant think of anything I would like to do if I can complete this course. But then again, I was the one who put myself into this mess, so I have to go on with it regardless whatever.
Please remind me that its more fortunate being a student that a corporate zombie! I don't care if I may get expelled for failing modules eventually. But I will not tolerate regrets. Smoke my way through if I must, I will not withdraw from the course!
