Heard something today that made mi think of my flying days and why I quit. Life is pretty simple now... I really do enjoy my simple life. Well... Though not exactly true when I have quizzes or exams... Haha.
When I was still flying, I didn't feel like I was living a life... Being far away from home two-thirds of a year, each alternate day was like an check-in, check-out affair. Although I had alot more time and space to myself, and frankly, I greatly enjoyed that too. Nevertheless, it saddens me that:
I had the time, but not the energy to take a simple stroll in the garden.
I had the money to indulge in finer stuff, but that didn't make me a happier person.
I had the privilege of knowing the world, but I didn't what was happening in my home grounds.
I could visit the huge safari in Africa, but didn't know what we have in the local zoo.
I may have had the means of getting the most expensive concealer available, but that wouldn't cover up my increasingly terrifying dark eye rings.
I could afford one box of slimming pills after another, but I didn't have the time to eat healthier.
I may have enjoyed the softest bed in 5-stars hotel, but I couldn't get used to my own bed at home.
I could have waffles from New York and sashimi from Tokyo, but I couldn't remember when was the last time I had a nice plate of Fried Kway Teow.
Yes, I may have terrible quizzes and exam blues now, but that really can't compare to the "Control-Centre" blues I had before each flight --- the scary thoughts of praying that the cab may crash before I reach the Changi Airport, so that I did not have to report for flights.
But still, I did enjoy the freedom... While squeezing in with the rest of the working society on the MRT the other morning, I can understand why it is so many girl's dream to become a stewardess. Looking at the expressionless zombies rushing for work on the train makes me want to get away too! I can't imagine being a part of these zombies four years later. Yet how much are we willing to sacrifice for a dream to be away?
Baby says after I graduate, if I want we can apply for flight attendant jobs together. Haha, I will think about it again. Hehe. If Baby is flying with me, I'm sure things would be very different!! At least with him around, 80% of my little universe is with me when I'm away from 20% of it...
