I am so bored. The cycle repeats over and over again... Or rather I guess it had never end ever since I packed my kebaya into my wardrobe.
Boredom fills my whole miserable life. *Weep* I know how people always complain that they are suffocated by stress, or by work etc. They reckon that I am lucky to be able to give up work for studies, and that I should indulge myself in this "freedom". But why do I feel so suffocated by boredom? There's nothing much to do everyday. Nothing much to feel excited about either. It says alot if I can finish drooling over two korean and one taiwanese darma series in just a week. I am just growing into a Gigantic Potato and very soon, you'll see sprouts on my airy head too. Comparatively, the much-torturous exam period some two weeks ago seems much more meaningful. Extremely undesirable but definitely much much more meaningful.
I need something to do! I prefer finding a job. I suppose there are alot of considerations to make especially when the next semester holds 3 killer subjects. Leave issues alone could kill alot of brain cells, should I work. A suicidal move? Perhaps? ....Gee, yes most likely. But I am so itching for some motivation in life! Well, work can hardly be called motivation, I know. Yet I guess sometimes motivation do come in the forms of responsibilities and discipline too. If others can do it, why not me? Hmm... then again, my brain is hardly half as good as theirs.... SIGH. Procastination.
The exam result would be released in about 5 days. I mentioned that I did not put in much effort this semester. So its little wonder why I am getting so jittery over it now. In fact, just talking about it now gives me butterflies in my stomach and makes my heart beat ridiculously. Damn nervous >< Argh.
The irritating part is, why does the results release date have to fall on the day after the Great Singapore Sales starts??! I've been storing $M-power$ over the last two months for this GreatShopping Spree, I had even surveyed and scribbled my shopping list! But I guess I probably wouldn't enjoy it as much now. I am already feeling this much stress over my results now, I don't think the stress will be any less just a day before the bomb drops... How can I shop in peace???!!!! Oh Horrid Horrid Horrid!
