A wonderful cause for celebration!! Well, at least before we get our results............. >< But I'm sick... again... How untimely.
I didn't study much for the papers, I wouldn't be surprise if I failed them. But frankly, I can't really be too bothered if I did fail. Maybe I'l weep a day or too... But the point is, I guess I wouldn't be too devastated. Afterall, its the excellent excuse to pull my butt out of this entire contradiction of interest. It meant I can start looking for another contradiction of interest, as usual.
My special term module starts next week. Afterwhich if I'm not wrong, I'll be "entitled" to a month of semester break before the next semester starts in August. I'd better look for a part-time job within this period. The boredom that I went through on my last semester break was really torturous, my life went upside down.
Anyway, I will be taking Business-related module, not Industrial Management like almost everyone else. But I'm so envious of their timetable! Lectures on 1-2 days a week, not a 3-day-per-week like mine. I wonder why I made a different choice. Its a mild attempt to debate my desire to diverge out of the chemical and engineering field in the future. Then again, it makes me rethink why am I in this course then. Another contradiction of interest. Gosh.
Sometimes I like to think that I am clear-headed and have control over the direction that my life is heading. But if I think enough, I guess I have to admit I am way way way out of control. Why do I always chose to do the "right" things for the so-called "better" future and ignore the agony I'm forcing myself through in the process?
Eventually, will I be leading the life that I want or just be living an eternal state of confusion where, "Oh, this is what I'm doing, but its not really what I want to do." I've got enough of countless replicates of that situation.
GRR....
Oh, it occurs to me that this is my first entry in 2 weeks. Really, I didn't meant to grumble.
