Saturdays... A day to recuperate from a week of work and nothing else?? I wonder how I can sleep so much and still feel so tired and wasted. Isn't more rest suppose to do me good? Why do I always get such terrible headaches on saturdays?
I hope it is just a temporary withdrawal symptom, while my body is still trying to adapt to the five-days working lifestyle. Once the semester begans, Saturdays are meant for academic hard work. I have no time to waste on headaches and backaches. :o(
After three weeks of administrative work, I realise I am still pretty much an analytical person. I realise what a indecisive person I am. If anyone ask me, I would still say I prefer my first job's work scope, minus all the ill-treatment, bangadash + maid labour and emotional blackmails by that horrible witch. Read: WORK SCOPE Only.
It was a job that requires knowledge, alot of research (due to an incapable boss who cant even differentiate between a humidifier and a dehumidifer), alot of analytical and troubleshooting skills and careful planning. Very challenging in technical terms, but much simpler socially. I guess thats the difference between working with instruments and working with people.
Working with people is alot more complicated. You can try to analyze a person's character, but there's no way you can troubleshoot his behaviour. You can't tell him what is right or wrong because seniority counts and rank counts. Well, although the work is much simpler.
I know my initial intention in picking up a job now is just to pass some time. A simple administrative contract is the maximum that I can commit to now, while my focus should stil be in my studies. I am also aware of the reasons why I attempted an adminisitrative contract in the banking sector in the first place. Since I want to work, I might as well take the opportunity to build up my resume at the same time, so that I can move into the business sector after my graduation.
Why the business industry, when my interest are still very much in the technical world? (I said technical, not engineering.... Hee.) To be realistic, exactly how far can a female go, in an engineering field that is very much male-dominated? How far can technical skills bring you? And how far can a technical Degree bring you, in an industry overflowing with Masters and PHD holder? Chemist? Or Senior Chemist?? But once I've started working, I cant help being greedy for a "proper" job that can leverage on my knowledge and skills.
Yes I know I just want everything.
Very often I would just think of myself as a girl with little or no ambitions. I just want a brainless job and make a simple living. I thought I would be happy with just that. Indeed, I will be, I guess. Then again, sometimes I think perhaps I might be happier putting my knowledge to the challenge instead. Who cares if the pay might be just as miserable and that there may not be much room for career development? Yet contrasting to that, there are also times when I think I may actually be secretly craving for the corporate ladder, secretly longing to be successful.
