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Sunday, August 26, 2007

MoOdY........... (~_~|||

Been feeling so bloody moody lately. I'm even irritated by mere sight of my hair. The length and the colour just isn't right and I hate it. =(

I guess it has got something to do with the start of the new academic semester and the horribly packed timetable that comes with it. The questions marks that are jumping all over my head every lecture i sit in, is just making it worse.

I want to HOLLLLEEERRRRRRRRR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I'm making quite alot of mistakes in work. I would hear instructions and forget them the second I step back to my seat. Totally unforgivable. Seriously think I am just empty-headed. Unqualified for a bimbo, yet certainly brainless.

I guess its the mad rush everyday. I'm so tired that I'm finding it so hard to concentrate at work. I end up churning out quantity instead of quality everyday, which totally doesn't helps in clearing the load when the rejected work just keep coming back. My pending work has already overflowed my SIX-TIER IN-tray. Yes, SIX-TIER (when most of my colleagues only have Two)! Can you believe it!

Just waiting for the day that I am so over-pushed my limits, I'd just call it quits. I don't know when is that going to happen, but my guess is, it wouldn't be far. I really love my job, but the working hours is just driving me nuts.

Super longing for a getaway now. Taipei!! Or at the very least, just let me go back "home" to Hong Kong for a week. But hell, I've got to save my leave for the exams!!!!!! FISH. Feel so impulsed to just go ahead to book and pay for the tickets now! Heck care if I can make the trip or not. I just want something happy to look forward to.

5:02 AM
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Saturday, August 25, 2007

像水一样的爱。。。

淡淡的。。。

没有什么可以埋怨，也没有什么值得喜悦。

想不通。。。是你给得不够，还是我要得太多。

11:23 PM
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Thursday, August 23, 2007

bLaBbeRinG....

Strike out the previous entry...

Boy, I must have been boiling mad when I wrote those. Should have been more gracious... Well, at the very least, should not have put myself in the same level with an immature who's not in her right mind. Why was I so bothered in the first place???

Well, now that my frustrations has been vent out, publicity has been given, and more importantly the black sheep removed from my group... Peace reigned again.

Maybe the rain cooled me down... I really like the smell of freshness that fills the air after a heavy storm. It smells like baby innocence and with a minty tinge of enthusiasm... Gee... if you can't get what I mean, don't bother... Me neither. Haha.

P/S: Realise its been long since I last took or upload any pic. Shall be more dilligent in that.

11:28 PM
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Sunday, August 19, 2007

cRaZy DaY!!!!

Some people simply have NO manners.

I'm certainly not in the habit of disgracing people I know personally in my blog. But if you push me that far, then YES I do have the right to clarify things and defend myself up here in my own space.

Despite knowing all the bad and untruthful things she had been saying behind my back, I've been keeping quiet all this while. But this time round, I'm not just letting my reputation get smeared, and go through her bullshit again for nothing.

Her temper is just outrageous, simply mad. Frankly I have never met anyone so difficult. Girl, I have been polite, but that doesn't mean you can push over me again and again. You want to let everyone know what happen? I grant your wish. Just that I'd let them know the truth instead. Mess around with an ex-crew? You have dialed the wrong number if you think an ex-crew like me have no defences, girl.

Do refer to my WAR entry some months back. For those who had heard part of the story, NO it was not because my group pushed the lab report to her. It all started because she simply refused to do her part, not without some "friendly negotiation".

What happened then:

Let's not talk about the many times that she was absent or late for group meetings (Late as in arrive when the discussion ended)... That will be another story. Straight to that report that got us all into this state:

It was a particularly difficult report, so she offered to get a senior's report initially. But that didn't happened till near end, because it simply slipped her mind despite a few reminders. She'll cook up lies that the senior did not replied to her request everytime someone asks about it. Groupies, you must be surprised to hear this. How did I know? From her own mouth, that's where.

The rest of us struggled to our best efforts with the report without any references. Then came her turn to finalize the report. Around the same time she had also finally managed to get hold of a senior report. In face of the pressing time frame, I guess she panicked. She started to kick up a storm comparing our draft report to trash, and that she could not comprehend whatever we wrote in there. (She could not comprehend because she wasn't there when we had our report discussion, I guess).

She disrregarded all our hard work and demand to know why we did "trash" even when she had managed to get the senior report. Why? Let me tell you why, because the senior's report was never passed to the rest of us, and we were never aware that she did eventually managed to get hold of one.

She then claimed her computer was down, (I heard she was still using the same excuse this year. Time to change your lappie, don't you think?) and tried very hard to push her part of the work to me, with the convenient excuse that I wasn't working back then and I was supposed to have the time (which strangely was always to her convenience), which I didn't. When that didn't work out, she bursted out in her craze of accusations and insults, targetted at me. Scary temper. It never occurred to her that I had actually forwarded all her crazy sms to the rest of the group as she was still at the barking. Which was why it didn't work when she later attempted backstabbing me of being so-called "irresponsible" to the groupies.

Want to read the sms? I still have a copies of it if only I can locate my memory card. Glad to distribute if that can prove my innocence.

Anyway it was a pointless craze, since she still had to get down on her hands to complete the report eventually. But I would call her contribution very WILFUL. She simply blindly copied and paste the senior's report into our report. She did not even bother to change any of their data to our own unique experimental results. The rest of us were dumbfounded, but said nothing and went ahead to edit the mess anyway. I wonder if she realised that the final edition of the report was so different from the wilful mess that she handed down to us?

She had since promised to print out and deliver the report to school on the due date. But as expected, on the last minute she claimed that she was stuck at work and had to "Tai-Ji" the delivery to my groupie. After my groupie drove all the way to her company to receive the hard copy from her so that she can concentrate on her work, guess what? She was sighted getting into her bf's car, leaving her company! Work? What work? And the most furious part was, that day was my groupie's birthday!! Had it skipped her mind or thought it was fine getting a birthday girl spend an evening doing deliveries?

The whole episode was just a disaster, her unreasonable barking had made us shun away from her. I guess she must have felt the distance and awkwardness too, so she requested to swop teams with my guy. Her widely & publicly expressed reasons for the swop? --- Because me and my guy are couples --- Naturally the swop was not accepted. Firstly my guy was already very comfortable working with his own group. Secondly, we had never see the need to work together in a group just because we are couple-branded. So we didn't need her to make that unnecessary "sacrifice" if that was truly her concern.

Her later contributions to our group reports were not significant, but it was expected so we didn't raise any comments. At least, whatever "transactions" with her was still peaceful. I remember vividly one interesting episode when we were voluntaring to share the report workload. She kept so quiet that she almost faded to the background. When all the workload had been accounted for, that night she send a sms to my groupie saying that she has nothing to do, and was there's anything that she can do? I almost rolled laughing when I heard about it. Then what was she doing when we were distributing the workload? Pretending to be invisible?

What happened today:

A few days back she sms-ed my guy to swop teams for the new semester again. He later forwarded the sms to us asking for our opinions. Note, it was my guy who forwarded the sms to us. She had never bother to inform her own group of her intention to change groups. Her vague reasons for the swop was: "It is more convenient"

Frankly, my group have absolutely NO objections of having her out of the group. She had been so difficult to work with, having her out definitely deserves to pop a champagne or two! (Note, her tantrums over the workload had not only been suffered by my group.) However, knowing her and the politics she plays, we were reluctant to give any reply to my guy's enquiry.

One, she has never informed us about it. Since she's proposing another member to join our group, shouldn't she at least let us know about it first?
Two, we did not want to be another publicized shame for the swop.
Three, I personally do not enjoy our couple-branding to be her widely publicised excuse behind the swop again.
Hence Four, it would only be fair she explains what constitutes the convenience she was talking about.

Then today, she approached my guy peronally for the swop again. My guy agreed, with the consideration that he did not want me (& my group) to go through all the unhappiness from her again. The moment he accepted the offer, she made a irresponsible comment that the swop was for HIS convenience. I had forseen that to happen!! She made it sound like she has done us a favor when we didn't even ask for it! Shrewd!

Even though it could have called for a celebration, I made a strong objection to hold it. Firstly, she had not even bother to inform us herself, and more importantly I refuse Refuse REFUSE to be or to let my guy be another excuse for the swop. Not unless she clarifies herself!!

When my guy sms her to cancel the swop, and she became so insistent and refusing to bug, that he had call her to explain the situation, that he was withdrawing from the swop simply because she had not communicate to the group in the first place and hence my group is refusing the decision as such.

That scary woman started raising her voice with some crude and unreasonable remarks. My poor guy had to keep telling her to talk in a more civilised manner, but she just went on and on, totally in state of berserk-ness!! She went on to tap on my guy's busy working schedule as excuse, adding accusations of me leaving group meetings early (which I'm not aware of at all. Did I? I seriously thought it was herself she was talking about), and even to the extend of using our couple meet-ups to support her claims that my guy is too busy for his own group work! I didn't know that she was soooo... "concerned" about our couple time! And for some reasons, I happen to know that my guy had been diligent in his group work.

Finally, she even had the cheek to slam the phone down on my guy!! So uncivilised! Hello? Who is the person negotiating for a swop in the first place?

She then went on to call and disturb one of my groupies, and complaining that my guy had called and scolded her. She even tried calling me up --- for a serious bark, I fear! Luckily I missed the call, unintentionally I swear! But I guess she was at the point of volcanic eruption and have to bark somehow, so she send me another of her unique sms again, in exact letters below. I have not bothered to reply, but I shall do it now:

"U n c**** issue is not my problem.. now only u dun wan tis change the rest is ok. I wan to change is because i dun feel comfortable working w u. So wat is the issue now. N ur bf call n scold. Wat is tis.. Please be fair to me cannot."

"U n c**** issue is not my problem.." YES, girl. You are definitely right, my bf & my issues are obviously not your problems. You shouldn't be so dramatically concerned over our couple time or his work schedule. Whether my bf can cope with his work or with me, is therefore for him to fret over on and for me to shower my loving concerns on. Not you.

"now only u dun wan tis change the rest is ok." NO girl, please don't misunderstand... We absolutely have NO NO NO, and I repeat again, NOOOOOOOOO objections about kicking your ass outta the group. In fact, we are secretly rejocing now!! The only problem now is that you seems unclear why do you want the swop, and which part of that do you want to make multiple broadcasts over?

"I wan to change is because i dun feel comfortable working with u." Oh, so now you are citing another of your reasons. So is that THE reason? Please make up your mind, girl. And by the way, I'm NOT uncomfortable working with you at all. That's because you hardly bother to do any work with us anyway. Since we don't get to see you that much when it comes to sharing the workload, why should I feel uncomfortable? If there's any discomfort on my part at all, well... I guess DETEST will be a more appropriate word. =)

"So wat is the issue now." Like I said, girl... Make up your mind, my dear. I'm turning auntie just by repeating after myself so many times! If you keep insisting and broadcasting that the swop is a noble proposal for me & my guy to work together. Then, thank you very much BUT we do not need it. Period.

"N ur bf call n scold." I guess you might not be aware that I was standing right in front of him when he made that scarrrieeeeee call to you, so I should be well aware on whether he did "scold" you like you claimed or NOT. Well, he did NOT. As far as I remember, you were the one flaring your obnoxious temper. So stop victimizing people with your flares, then try to lie your way to innocence. That's a very bad habit, you know?

"Wat is tis..." Hmm... Good question... "Tis" is another obnoxious sms from you?

"Please be fair to me cannot." Gosh, I don't really understand your English here. So is it "to be fair" to you? Or is it "CANNOT be fair" to you? Talking about fairness... spreading false rumours, lying through your teeth, inappropriate distribution of work, and being barked at for nothing doesn't really sounds very fair too, right? So can you "be fair to us cannot" too?? *Drops to the floor laughing*

1:20 AM
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Friday, August 17, 2007

Thanks, Yen!!

Seems like the only person that can't leave a message in my own tagboard is MYSELF.... =( It simply hangs.

Thanks so much Yen, for your concern!! Should have said HI!!

I'm OK, still alive.... But just very very very tired!!!! Latest update? Well, here's what... My skin is aging, my looks haggard-ed, my dark under eyes circles have turned black and my arms diameter doubled. I'm just waiting for that "sagging" tummy to happen now. Gross Me.

Just too tired to be bothered to groom myself nowsaday. My attires are getting very dull from too much repetitions. I can go to work in rags, I wouldn't really care, but hell, that's still a bank... I'm turning AUNTIE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

{~_~ Sob....

Wonder why am I still not asleep at 1:20am? Online-Window-Shopping, that why... Well, you know, ASOS is having a great sale now and I can't take my eyes of sales!!! It really isn't my fault, right?

OK yes, my skin is aging, my looks haggard-ed, my dark under eyes circles have turned black and my arms diameter doubled...... AND I DESERVED IT....!!!! *WAIL*

1:11 AM
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Thursday, August 09, 2007

sChOoL's sTaRTeD.... I'm dRaiNeD...

I have not been blogging....

School has started. I'm so tired out from the rush from work to school everyday, that I slept the whole day through today. Had no energy to even dress up and travel out to see that fireworks that I'm been anticipating the whole week. No energy to go out and have fun on the Public Holiday that I've been waiting for.

I've been literally running out of my office at 6:30 sharp every lecture day. I can really feel my muscles toning up from the mad rush already. I kind of feel guilty about leaving on the dot & not being able to concntrate at work these days, but being later than I already am for lectures is really no joke when I've got 3 killer modules this sem. But the guilt, argh... I hate it.

I seems to forget that study is still my priority sometimes and that I should not hesitate to give up anything that threatens my path to getting my degree. But yet, I know I'm not willing to give working up even if it does hinder my studies.

If others can, I don't see why not me... I hope this determination last long enough.

Back to bed.... Niteynitez, world.

11:25 PM
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